Who Am I?

Created: 2025/1/21
Last Edited: 2025/2/18

Since my identity tends to lag behind reality, and people close to me tend to know various parts of me better than I know myself, it's best to let friends, family, colleagues, and community members speak for who and how I am based on my actions.
Over the course of years, this information can showcase a changelog of how I evolved over time, and teach me to understand myself better. I'm deeply grateful to everyone who chose to share their feedback here.

I've pseudonymized the feedback to help encourage honesty. These are words from real people and sometimes they'll have updates and additions to share over time, such as with P6.
Square brackets indicate additions or edits I made, usually for clarification e.g. pvp [Player vs. Player].

1. P1 2025/1/14:
   Vamsi is very enthusiastic. He'll tackle multiple projects at once. With little guidance will complete assigned tasks. Has a strong drive to improve and keep busy. Works well with a team of diverse people, including international clients.
2. P2 2025/1/21:
   Vamsi was quite naive a month ago. Before, he was taking a lot of shit personally when people misunderstood him, but now he's more focused on the positive impact of his work.
   He's quite idealistic.
   He’s ready to create 10 projects and have 5 of them be bad. That means he created 5 projects that are good. He’d rather risk bad work than no work.
3. P3 2025/1/22:
   My first impression of Vamsi is that he seems chill. Chill to me can be defined as like easygoing and casual attitude. He has a lot of stuff going on that may not be 'chill' and he has worries but HE KNOWS that he needs to work on those things. That is an admirable feature to have in a person. Vamsi seems like he wants to grow more as a person and that's interesting.
   
   He brings up interesting discussions and makes people think.
4. P4 2025/1/22:
   
   • Vamsi is very impressionable and seems to mirror those around him. He is affected deeply by the people around him. If there's a lot of negativity around him, he gets mired in that and slows down. It creates some kind of feedback loop where he amplifies and redirects that negativity towards himself by trying to take responsibility for it. He ends up being too hard on himself. If he has positive people around him, he is inspired by that and builds upon that.
   • Vamsi is highly creative and excels at the initial stages of a project. He generates ideas quickly, outlines clear project goals, and designs strong frameworks that can inspire others. However, he tends to lose momentum (or become distracted?).
5. P5 2025/1/22:
   Keep on keeping on.
6. P6 2025/1/22:
   I'm not exactly a writer, but I think this accurately reflects my opinion
   • There is a saying that goes “Honesty without compassion is cruelty. Kindness without honesty is manipulation.” But I don’t often hear about the intersection of these two qualities. Even though you, me, and everyone else seem to feel it when we see it. It’s a sort of intangible attribute that makes you trust another person. I call it SINCERITY.
   • Vamsi, I believe, rests at this intersection. He has an obvious level of passion that takes the form of creation and destruction in both himself and the projects he works on. As proven by the numerous initiatives and positions Vamsi has placed himself in, he is willing to give, exchange, improve, teach, and almost anything else required to further knowledge or better a situation.
   • But in my opinion Vamsi’s biggest weakness is also his Sincerity. I can see how burdened he lets himself become. Many people are good and responsible when the system incentivizes them to be so. Sincere people tend to be their own biggest critics and hold themselves accountable at a higher level than is healthy or reasonable. This can be corrosive to happiness and longevity. Don’t just learn to rest, learn to be still. Quiet the mind. Inspiration rarely comes in the heat of battle, but in the quiet solitude of introspection.
   P6 2025/02/01:
   Vamsi has book-smarts and he's actively seeking street-smarts now to grow out of his naivete.
7. P7 2025/1/22:
   Vamsi is the kind of person who brings people together in a respectful and open environment, fostering trust and meaningful conversations without judgment. He has an incredible talent for quickly creating solutions and designing systems that not only utilize everyone’s strengths and address areas for growth but also ensure they feel motivated and never pressured.
   
   I always feel heard and valued when he follows up on our conversations with thoughtful, motivational content that inspires me to grow in areas where I feel lacking. His genuine care and intentional approach inspire both personal and collective improvement, making him a truly uplifting presence.
   
   Sometimes, Vamsi can get very excited, but I see it as a reflection of how deeply passionate he is about his projects, helping others, and his own journey of personal growth. His enthusiasm is contagious and adds so much energy to everything he takes on.
8. P8 2025/1/24:
   Vamsi is both super helpful and a great self-starter. He is not afraid of taking on responsibilities. He always seems really busy too.
   
9. P9 2025/1/24:
   Vamsi is a caring person who has more impact than he thinks. When he hosts his Q&As for the community, he often answers the questions that people wished they had asked rather than just the question they did ask. He consistently actively changes his social environment to ensure that all people are understood.
   
   He is a distractible self-starter that gets excited about the impact of the projects that he starts, while also having a good idea of the impact of those projects since he is skilled at extracting feedback.
   
   He often wanders off the path, but where he wanders often has merit in itself and he leaves the projects in the hands of people who he has deemed capable. He is easily overwhelmed by breaches of trust and doesn't react well to attempts at manipulation since they are so contradictory to his own values of curiousity, openness, and honesty.
   
   I'm not sure I'd want him in a board room with a client, but I would always bring him in when ideas are needed.
10. P10 2025/1/30:
    You are a good person and a pure soul. I resepct that as i am more cynical and in many ways dysfunctional. I always say dont be like me 😄 Im way to obsessive and tunnel visioned. You are equally as passionate and obsessive but keep a broader view, as such some detail is lost but a perspective i cant see is achieved.
    
    Work to your strengths and live to find contentment, not just happiness.
    
    Also as an old bugger make sure you don't lose track of the day to day needs of life like bills, work and providing yousrelf with the minimum you need. Then you can dream and enjoy anything you want. But dreams don't keep a roof over your head or keep you fed watered and healthy.
11. P11 2025/1/29:
    1st thoughts on Vamsi:
    My initial thought of you Vamsi was strictly word of mouth. When I first heard about you, it was about many things you were doing for not just the guild but for the people of the guild. Then I heard about you gathering money for a freehold and then my thought was "Ohh he is just another ministry shill." I could not have been more wrong in my thinking.
    
    2nd thoughts on Vamsi:
    Upon officially meeting you during some pvp [Player vs. Player]. I could see you truly cared about helping people and trying to make them better for themselves. I could see the amount of time and dedication you put into it, just to experiment and figure out more to help others in the guild. That kind of dedication is often hard to find amongst a large population and I feel it should be more appreciated than what you were.
    
    3rd thought on Vamsi:
    This would be upon meeting and talking with you in the [P7] channel. I could hear the conflicting ideas floating around in your head when you heard our concerns with the guild and the higher echelons of the guild. I saw how hard of a time you had hearing those words being spoken out loud because it was something you were thinking about yourself. I'm glad you found a group that was outspoken and would say these thoughts out loud so you knew you weren't an outlier with your thoughts.
    
    Final thoughts on Vamsi:
    To wrap it all together, I truly believe Vamsi you have an amount of pride and dedication to the work you do that most people will never find in their life. I can see that anything you say you want to do, you could easily achieve just by thinking of how you might improve that or how you could improve yourself.
    
    I have noticed that you commit yourself very strongly to something and have a very hard time turning your back on it. I know mentally you wrap yourself in whether you're making the right decision often and I can see your great struggle with it. I do think with this you might over-commit yourself to people who do not commit themselves to you, but this is a lesson that is often learned over time of dealing with people and seeing what you want to surround yourself with more.
    
    But I don't believe this is a bad trait. I believe that leaders or people in general should often question themselves if they're making the right decisions. I believe you have a lot of traits that most people only wish they could have. I see that you have a heart not to help just yourself but to help others and you find greatness in not only seeing yourself strive but the people around you strive as well. I think you have amazing potential and I look forward to seeing what you can achieve and do.
    
    "You have power over your mind — not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength." -Marcus Aurelius.
    
    A quote I read every day to keep myself in the right headspace and something you may find useful yourself to reflect on.
12. P12 2025/1/30:
    Vamsi is a very charismatic personality that people gravitate towards. He has a natural ability to get people engaged and excited to learn and develop. He genuinely cares about the player experience.
    
    Unfortunately, this can at times make him take on too much and burn out. Vamsi does take advice / critique very well and adjusts accordingly so it is my hope that this break from Pirates is temporary, but if not wherever he lands they will gain a great asset.
13. P13 2025/1/30:
    I remembered that for every journey you want to begin; some must end. It is the natural cycle of life and death that all things go through physically, mentally, and spiritually.
    
    Your journey reminds me of a firework. initially inert but given just a spark begins a powerful ascent to the sky where it explodes in a fiery blast of beautiful colors and sounds. When the smoke clears and the smell of soot leaves your nose it is not the pieces you clean up that are remembered but the moments of joy and dazzling lights that you experienced.
    
    Thank you for showing everyone your beautiful colors, especially of your own volition. I'll see you when I see you lol.
14. P14 2025/1/31:
    Upon first meeting Vamsi, I thought of him as a genuinely nice guy who is easy to get along with. He comes across as knowledgeable and humble.
    
    As I got to know him better, I discovered that Vamsi is very driven and has a passion for learning, which genuinely excites him. He often agrees to help others and strives to please those around him, but this tendency can sometimes lead to taking on too much responsibility. As a result, he occasionally feels overwhelmed, despite his efforts to manage the workload of multiple people.
    
    Vamsi values authenticity and appreciates genuine connections. He is approachable and easy to talk to, making it simple for others to become friends with him. However, those who are hypocritical, selfish, or narcissistic may find it challenging to connect with him, as these traits do not align with his values. Vamsi prioritizes respect and meaningful relationships.
15. P15 2025/1/31:
    My first impression of you was that of an organizer or coordinator; someone who brings people together to accomplish goals. That impression quickly broadened. I see you as, simply put, someone who does. Rarely are you idle. Even now you’re compiling the thoughts of those you’ve interacted with. You are a strong communicator as well. You encourage others to share their ideas and reinforce an environment of growth and progress.
16. P16 2025/1/31:
    "Nobody deserves Vamsi"
    
    that's my quote
17. P17 2025/2/14:
    Vamsi is a natural organizer and connector of people.
    Vamsi's superpower is that he buffs people, like a Bard[An archetype from Dungeons & Dragons who empowers allies and demoralizes foes through magical music and words].
    He's not the person who gets the final hit on the boss. He's the person who makes that boss kill on its own even possible to begin with.
    That's similar to what Thor [Pirate Software] does when he fosters community and an environment of collaboration. He can always do a specific, individual act on its own. It will have an immediate impact, but once it's done, it's done.
    However, when his actions enable and empower other people, his impact lasts longer and has more far-reaching effects on people.